Birthing Dreams Into Reality: Rising Up To Share My Truth
Over the last 4 months since lockdown started, I have been creating my first album “Light Language Transmissions: New Earth” and I am so excited to birth it into the world next week during Lions Gate 11.8.2020 ✨ This is a dream come true as I have been working on music for 8 years and I have never felt ready to share but now I understand why as it had to be this. Everything has led me to this point to create my deepest soul offering. Now it’s finished I am listening back to it thinking how did this happen?! I think when you see others launching an album, book, course or creative project into the world, it can be so easy to see the end product and not realise the deep process behind it. Often these heart offerings are years and even lifetimes in the making. It is a process of many years of learning, growth, and devotion to get to the point when your offering and you are actually ready to birth it into the world. I am grateful I am at that point now and I give thanks for the profound, challenging, beautiful and magical journey to get me here.
It feels like a particularly big step for me because throughout my life I have suffered with throat chakra blocks and experienced a deep fear of being seen. When it comes to sharing my voice I have to feel extremely comfortable with someone to do it and if I do sing in my healing sessions it often takes a lot of courage to build up to that point. It has been crippling at points and the wounds still come up now but my devotion to my purpose to be in healing service has enabled me to rise up time and time again, and each time I face the blocks I feel myself getting stronger. Whatever I create and share is always with the purpose of healing and activating others so this knowing keeps me moving forward centred in my heart.
It is light language that changed everything for me and activated my truth and my voice in ways I struggle to explain in words. I have been channeling light language for the last 3.5 years and I have experienced monumental shifts. My voice opened up as a channel for spirit to flow into the physical. Instantly songs and chants began to flow through me that were not of this world. When I started to share this with others in healing sessions a few years ago it became clear that these transmissions were deeply healing and activating for others to receive too. The physical, emotional and spiritual reactions people often experience when they receive it blows me away. It has become my most cherished healing tool as it has so many dimensions to it in the way that it supports me and serves others. Light language speaks to you on a soul level. It goes straight into the heart - beyond the human mind. Spirit has guided me on a deep journey of remembrance with it and I have been shown how it is my my destiny to be a beacon for light language on our planet at this time. It is a divine tool that is here to awaken those who receive it. It is here to bring healing to humanity, and I am honoured to be a channel.
The way this album has unfolded has been so organic, it has guided me rather than the other way around. I never planned to create an album, it kind of just happened along the way. I remember last year people kept coming to me at the end of my events and ceremonies to ask if the music I played was mine as it sounded like me singing. I kept getting signs that it was time to share my voice with the world, but It took for the world to pause in lockdown for me to truly ground the guidance into reality. My energy was not at its full potential for a while as things were so full on in London with my healing practice, and I remember feeling like I had a big creative blocks for some time. Lockdown came like a blessing in disguise for me. It naturally provided me the space for my channels to truly open and for that I am so grateful. The extra time I was gifted totally reignited my creativity and I felt a fierce fire light within me. I dug out some music equipment I had invested in last summer which I had never had the time to even get out the box, and as soon as I set it up I could not stop the light language songs channeling. So much was coming through me I was almost overwhelmed. Melodies were flowing in all the time. Light codes were bursting out of my heart. I knew it was time for me to birth these sacred codes from the divine into the world. Some transmissions are songs that have been coming through over the last few years, and others came through during lockdown. Many times the energy has been so strong when channeling I have been moved to tears. It has been a very deep and emotional process and I know it is no coincidence that I fell pregnant at the same time I started unknowingly creating this album. This soul has been a huge part of this journey.
I have been sharing sound healing for almost 4 years now and it has been such a magical journey. Crystal bowls unexpectedly came into my life and things have never been the same since. It felt like coming home. However, my journey with creating music actually started 9 years ago in 2011 in the midst of an intense awakening. I have always had a deep connection to music and singing was something I loved to do as a little girl in my bedroom as it made me feel free. However, I detached from my voice for a long time. It took a spiritual awakening to reignite that flame again. I suddenly felt inspired to learn how to produce my own electronic music so I got my first Mac laptop and signed up to an Ableton music production course in 2012. I instantly connected to music production and I always remember the teacher saying I had a natural gift with it. I would lose days on it after that. Making music was a way to express the intense emotion and sensitivity I was feeling at the time. I could feel the emotion channeling into the music and it was the best feeling to listen back and feel that raw energy.
Then my beautiful friend @djannawall came into my life and she is such a talented musical being. We had this deep soul connection with music which unfolded into reality in Ibiza in 2014 when we worked on our first collaboration. Over the years since then our music has evolved completely and it tells a story of our own evolution and shifts along the way. I want to express my deepest gratitude to Anna for being the person who helped reignite my connection to my voice all those years ago. My throat chakra has been such a deep healing process because it was so shut down and blocked from a young age. However, i always felt so held and seen without an ounce of judgement from Anna. I felt safe to express myself through my voice. Every time we made a new track together I got a little more comfortable with recording vocals and writing lyrics and opened up more and more. Anna would always praise me and encourage me to use my voice and it’s still the same now. She celebrates with me every time I rise. I am not sure there are enough words to thank you Anna. I will be eternally grateful for your sisterhood and support - whether I am in my darkest hours or flying my highest highs - you are always there holding me or celebrating my wins with me!
I also feel deeply grateful to my love @chris_conscious_cook! Thank you for supporting me on my journey of finding my voice and sharing it. Thank you for encouraging me to rise into my power. You might be my dreamy alien Aquarius being but you keep me so grounded! Your love and support enables me to rise up higher than I ever imagined so I can find the strength within to share my gifts. You have given me incredible advice throughout the process of me creating my album, and although I didn’t like to hear some of it at first, you were always right ha! I love you beyond words my soul mate! Can’t wait for us to create some magical music together soon!
In truth I could say thank you a million times! Every person who has ever encouraged me to share my voice or has shared experiences after receiving light language - you are a huge part in this process. I am so grateful. I know we do not need to seek approval from others but to receive support along the way has really helped me to learn how to believe in myself. Special thanks to Felicity and our @wombawakeninguk tribe of incredible women as every ceremony and retreat we shared together has always been the safest space and the divine sisterhood we cultivated truly enabled me to rise up into my truth and share my voice. I love you all.
I give thanks everyday to spirit as this album would not be happening if it wasn’t for my connection to the divine. It is my greatest teacher. When we connect to something greater than ourselves and remember our own divine essence - there is no going back - only forwards towards our highest truth.
Most of all I know I need to acknowledge my own devotion to this unfolding. The many years of self-work and healing I have delved into have led me to this point and without cringing I can actually say that I am proud of myself for rising through the things I have in my life and transforming them into my greatest blessings! My only intention for this album is that it reaches the hearts of those who are ready to receive it. It is full of love and healing light so all that matters to me is that it radiates out into the world in whichever way it needs to. I trust in the divine plan and I am just grateful to have risen up into my heart to share my truth :)
If you have a dream - there is no one but YOU that can make it happen. Support is a gift and it can make the process less intense, however, it has to come from within. It takes dedication but trust me the gifts will be so worthwhile. Whatever your dream may be - know that you have the tools to make it happen. Otherwise the inspiration wouldn’t be coming into your heart in the way it does. Every person on this planet is an expression of the divine and the gifts each of us hold are just that. Share your light, the world needs it. You’ve got this!